And this is when reality sets in. That no life or love or situation can ever be as solid as you hope it to be.
I understood that to begin with, honestly. But when everything points that way for the good beginning portion of what's being built, just to have the solid faith be shaken so much so fast is crippling to that joy.
It changes my day-to-day peace. My hope along the way is to not become resentful.
The main question that runs through my mind all too often now is, what did I ever do to be so unworthy of the truth, no matter how big or small?
I think I've done my part. Communicated what's important to me and how I want to live, what my relationship and life policies are. When it's honored by words and not action, I get so sad. Because it's so unexpected and stings deep.
These values I hold dear to me are values I've always wanted to share mutually with someone.
Maybe someday..
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